Someone takes full responsibility for you from the moment you are a thought in their head through whatever point you start taking your independence. No complaints. No regrets. Just love and support. So much sacrifice. They learn as they go, drawing the lines between being a parent and being a friend as we grow up and go through all of those icky/wonderful phases of childhood. If I ever really sit down and start thinking about this whole amazing aspect of humanity, my heart and mind honestly feel like they're just overflowing. It's amazing! It's awe-inspiring! And for the past few years it is something I have only just begun to appreciate in the way it should be appreciated.
I am so phenomenally fortunate to have the mother that I do. We relate to each other, we respect each other, we ENJOY each other, and I don't know about her but every time I talk to her things feel like they just sorted themselves into a manageable place again. When this whole Korea idea came up, and I was initially hesitant, Mom was the one who completely got behind it and encouraged me to take the chance. (Now, the reality of packing and getting on that plane was a different emotional story...) How can someone who has poured so much energy, time, love, resources, and wisdom into raising you be so unselfish as to encourage you to move thousands of miles away from her? Holy selfless love. My heart doesn't even know what to do with it all.
Anyway. I'm really far away from my Mom today, and I really love her and miss her. And if putting myself through the emotional roller coaster of trying to write down all the ways I love her and am blessed by her can convey how amazing she is, I'll take the tears gladly.
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